I have a monkey brain. It is unruly. It seldom slows down yet alone comes to a rest. I force it daily to do just that. For half my life I have practiced meditation. I have yet to be able to sit for more than a few minutes in a quiet empty presence. This is […]
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It really is that simple. Let go. I’m not going to look to see if I wrote about this before as I’m nearly positive that I have. But of course, my multi-year outpouring of free life lessons and pitfalls and learnings is about me and you and my daughter and the world in general. It
Sometimes the titles for my posts just leap forward and confidently shout “here I am, pick me!”, like an uninhibited toddler. Other times, like with this post, I write the entire post in my head, likely while I am sleeping or watching South Park, or some other important life activity and then struggle to
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Sometimes I just feel “blue-screen-of-death”. I feel as if I am so far off of what is normal for me, so far from my ideal self, from my daily routines that the only way to get back is to simply reboot. A few weeks back I decided to hit Ctrl-Alt-Del. I’m just now coming back
I only know how to be me and I even suck at that at times. I can’t be you, I don’t know your struggles or beliefs or experiences. I would mess it up. I don’t even know how to be my wife of nearly thirty years. I have no clue how to be my
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From years of hiking I know that I can survive two of the following three threats simultaneously: cold, wind, and rain. But, I cannot withstand all three. Out on the trail it could be deadly. Two at a time is a real challenge, but one should be able to survive. So is it with pain
Do dogs need purpose? I feel pretty confident that dogs are better than humans, and to the best of my knowledge they do not wake up in the morning and challenge themselves to actualize their purpose. Can I learn from dogs? Can I not? Am I holding myself in a perpetual prison by forcing purpose
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I am trying today, and if possible everyday for the rest of my life, to be more present. I am trying to notice myself, notice my feelings and thoughts. I am trying to be more aware and less reactive. I am trying to observe myself as if from a third person perspective. I am trying
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I am currently dealing with a chronic back problem that is flaring up as a significant acute roadblock to mobility. Just trying to pick up a bag of groceries this morning has derailed my day and maybe my week. I have friends who have lost limbs and others that are essentially having to learn to
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I simply had to stop what I was working on. I needed to write. Sometimes it is so obvious that the universe is trying to teach me something. Teach me something that I desperately need to know or relearn. The path is built as we walk on it either with our eyes open or closed.
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