This, like essentially everything I think to share, is a rework of just breath and be present. Or, we always have all that we need. Or Zen is a finger pointing to the moon. Or, hurry never!
I have been honestly dreading today. If, my counting is correct (and of course that is the point in and of itself, who cares!) today will be the 100th blog posting of mine. My symmetry-loving math obsessed brain puts so much stock in round numbers. I think I’m dumb (great song by the way). I see patterns everywhere and significance in numbers like 25 and 100. I’ve read that humans are programmed to find patterns, to try to read the tea leaves and bear prints even when there are none. I just seem to have a super uber-hyper overactive gene for this. Why couldn’t it have instead been the gene for being great at basketball?
Is the 100th post any more important than the 39th? After all, that was my home room number in fifth grade. Yes, I remember that for some reason, but not Mrs. Walberg’s room number the following year, was it 36? 100 is simultaneously important and trivial (like all of us!) at the same time. Sometimes it acts like a particle, and other times like a wave. Just deal with it! Sometimes it appears real and other times as if absolute zero.
To further support how unimportant today’s 100th milestone is, I offer that the file name for this post is “Lesson 129” as I number them in (a separate file called life lessons). It is not called Lesson 100 because I have hundreds of ideas jotted down in that summary file, some of which have been fully fleshed out, some just a few sentences, and apparently 100 of them lobbed out into the ether to hopefully do more good than harm! Have I ever explicitly cautioned Caveat Emptor? Remember that the name of this grand experiment is CheapZen, and really it could even be called FreeZen but I hadn’t thought of that name years ago. So, yes, but is it real?
And if you still aren’t convinced (who the hell am I talking to anyway?) I am pretty sure that I accidentally published the same “lesson” two different Fridays, so really today could also be considered the 99th not the 100th. Should I go back and clean that up in some way? Even further, my grand thesis is that all lessons, all learnings, all things of value, all experiences, are just the same one in different flavors. There is only one Truth. Be present. There, I used the word “lesson” finally. I have been so afraid to use it, it could be received as arrogant. It could change the way that these offerings would and even possibly could be received. But we all know that a tree is not the same as the word tree nor what either of us have in our mind of what a tree is. A tree is a tree.
Well, we’ve come to the end of another perfectly good three minutes together. As always, I’ve said nothing as there is nothing that can be said. Just breath.
